Can you hear me ?
Ever since I was young I had dreams of being the opposite gender
Its taken me 30 to do anything about it
For someone who could be transgendered it has taken a long time for me to figure it out
But I cant be certain what is true or what’s absolute.
I have learned a lot about myself in the pasted 6 months.
But now after 30 years I am beginning to understand what I really I Am
For many years from curiosity, fear, confusion, and over thinking.
Traits that all humans have always have
Many ears ago I have had temptations about dressing like all the girls.
I was too afraid to try anything so I did the simplest thing
I simply compressed it.
At first my willpower was enough to compress it.
But it wasn’t enough.
The more I tried to compress it the more it fought to get out.
Like a virus inside me the more I compress it the more it fought to get out
Realizing that it was going to be with me for my whole life I made a decision to experiment
Ironically I did this to preserve my regular life
I figured it I do it once I would never have to do it again.
But I was wrong the more I did it the more it feed off it.
Like a drug the more you do it the more you depend on it.
There is a danger in secretes both in knowing and seeking out
Lots of time the things we think are absolute are untrue
Some secretes are meant to be hidden.
Secretes can ruin your life.
Coming out as transgendered is one such secrete
I wonder if I will truly be happy
I wonder If I will truly understand who I am
There will always be confusion and there will always be temptations