What is the one thing that makes me feel the most Femme ? Panties! Panties! Panties! As I have shared before, for the last year I have been wearing them under my male clothes 24/7. Just knowing that they are there, and the silky feel, makes me remember that Michelle is always inside of me, just waiting to come out. By acknowledging her on a daily basis, I accept that side of me.
I often go to Partners Café in New Haven, CT for Tiffany Leighs’s TG/TS Social Diva night. I usually leave my home dressed, drive to the event, then drive home. The last two times, I have felt the desire/need to go out in public. Both times I left the Cafe earlier than usual and went to the Walgreen’s a block away, which is open 24 hours. The first time I bought snacks. The second time I also bought some make up for myself. They also had some panties in a special sale bin. They were not my style but enjoyed being able to look at them as Michelle. It was the first time that I have ever bought anything for Michelle while dressed as Michelle. It was both invigorating and liberating to just be a girl shopping for girl things. I now know that I need to do that more!!!!!
Ann’s questions in the last issue prompted me to reflect on some other things that really make me feel like a woman. While panties are number one, there are three others.
I have hammer toes, and weak ankles. I have been reluctant to wear hi heels for that reason. I recently started wearing them. One of the things I love is hearing the clicking noise they make when I walk in them, and knowing that I am the one making that sound. While I don’t like having to shave my back and chest to look like a real woman, I love shaving my underarms. It really make me feel feminine and sexy. I plan to one day get rid of my body hair forever, but I think that I always keep my underarm hairs, so that I can continue to groom myself just like any other girl. Last but not least, while I have yet to take hormones, my breasts have grown, and are more sensitive. I am 64, and some gurls tell me that is why they are growing. However, I have also noticed they are definitely more sensitive, and are part of the overall pleasure sensations I am now more aware of with the rest of my body. I truly believe that is doing this to me as a way of letting me know that this is who I really am supposed to be. Having cute, sensitive, perky breasts, and seeing their form under my tee shirts, definitely makes me feel like a woman.