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Feeling Femme: in panties, with clicking heels, growing breasts


What is the one thing that makes me feel the most Femme ?  Panties! Panties! Panties!  As I have shared before, for the last year I have been wearing them under my male clothes 24/7.  Just knowing that they are there, and the silky feel, makes me remember that Michelle is always inside of me, just waiting to come out.  By acknowledging her on a daily basis, I accept that side of me.

I often go to Partners Café in New Haven, CT for Tiffany Leighs’s TG/TS  Social Diva night.  I usually leave my home dressed, drive to the event, then drive home.  The last two times, I have felt the desire/need to go out in public. Both times I left the Cafe earlier than usual and went to the Walgreen’s a block away, which is open 24 hours.  The first time I bought snacks.  The second time I also bought some make up for myself.  They also had some panties in a special sale bin. They were not my style but  enjoyed being able to look at them as Michelle.  It was the first time that I have ever bought anything for Michelle while dressed as Michelle.  It was both invigorating and liberating to just be a girl shopping for girl things.  I now know that I need to do that more!!!!!

Ann’s questions in the last issue  prompted me to reflect on some other things that really make me feel like a woman.  While panties are number one, there are three others.

I have hammer toes, and weak ankles.  I have been reluctant to wear hi heels for that reason.  I recently started wearing them.  One of the things I love is hearing the clicking noise they make when I walk in them, and knowing that I am the one making that sound.  While I don’t like having to shave my back and chest to look like a real woman, I love shaving my underarms.  It really make me feel feminine and sexy.  I plan to one day get rid of my body hair forever, but I think that I always keep my underarm hairs, so that I can continue to groom myself just like any other girl.  Last but not least, while I have yet to take hormones, my breasts have grown, and are more sensitive.  I am 64, and some gurls tell me that is why they are growing.  However, I have also noticed they are definitely more sensitive, and are part of the overall pleasure sensations I am now more aware of with the rest of my body.  I truly believe that  is doing this to me as a way of letting me know that this is who I really am supposed to be.  Having cute, sensitive, perky breasts, and seeing their form under my tee shirts, definitely makes me feel like a woman.

Thanks Michelle


About cdinyc2012

Crossdressers International Incorporated is a member-supported adult transgendered group focused on support and social activities, serving the New York City metropolitan area. CDI is qualified as a non-profit corporation under section 501(c) 7 of the federal tax code. In the beginning, as stated in “Our History”, our founders envisioned CDI to be an all inclusive, welcoming haven for those seeking to come to terms with their transgendered nature. While the majority of our members and friends identify as cross dressers, we have served as a refuge for those who identify as transsexual, drag queen, and gender queer as well. Historically, our focus has been on the m-f crossdresser/transgendered. However, we do welcome those who identify from the f-m experience. While many of our members are long time comfortable with their transgender identity, we have never lost sight that our basic mission is to stand ready to provide a welcoming sanctuary for those who are taking their very first steps of self discovery. We know from our own experience that this can be a frightening time for those who have been closeted. The fear of loss of family, friends, employment, and standing in ones community can be overwhelming. And all for merely being gender different. Even today in our changing times the fear of discovery, ridicule, and worse can be terrifying for those who are attempting to safely practice their gender expression. WE are here for you. We make no claims of being “expert” in any matters, yet through our individual and collective experience we are highly knowledgeable. CDI also serves as a resource center where we can direct you to qualified professionals should that be desired. In short, we believe that groups like ours help to save lives. Sometimes just a welcoming smile and spoken kindness can be enough to assure someone (and maybe that’s you!) that they are not alone. For whatever reason each of us were dealt this hand from birth. For years many of us have considered it a curse. At CDI we believe that once liberated from the isolation of the closet that in time you will come to see your own transgenderism as a “gift”. So whether experienced or not, come - We welcome you, and we exist for you!

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