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  Wearing Panties
 
On 5/4/15 I started doing something that has changed my life.  On that day I started wearing panties under my work clothes, and have been doing it 24/7 since then.  Including wearing them to bed.  Even though I told her before hand, it took my wife a couple of days to realize I had started doing it.  While my wife is not thrilled with it, she does not want me to stop just to please her.  She realizes how much this is a part of me, and that I need to express it. Now that I have started, I never want to stop, and actually don’t think I can.  It has reduced my stress, is helping me lose weight, and made me more at peace with myself.  We watched the Bruce Jenner interview together, and she thought that is what started me wanting to wear panties 24/7.  However, I shared with her that I saw a video of an MTF surgery last summer, and when I saw the finished product my first thoughts were “my god, that is how I could look”, and “my god maybe that is how I should have been born”.  I also said that I always thought that I would never consider having that surgery, mostly because I liked having a penis too much, and thought that the surgery was mostly just cosmetic.  However, that watching that video changed my thoughts about it.  She was not surprised, and said that she always expected that one day she would be sleeping next to a woman. I always considered myself to be a transvestite, in that I would always get aroused when I dressed up.  However, I have been able to wear panties all day without being aroused.  It just makes me feel good, and normal.  I also now realize how hiding and denying that side of my personality was impacting my self image, and my perspective on life.  I used to think that I was a man that liked and needed to express my feminine side.  I now realize that I am more of a woman, living life as man.   I don’t know where this is all going to take me, but it is going to be an interesting journey.   Thanks Michelle.
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Crossdressers International Incorporated is a member-supported adult transgendered group focused on support and social activities, serving the New York City metropolitan area. CDI is qualified as a non-profit corporation under section 501(c) 7 of the federal tax code. In the beginning, as stated in “Our History”, our founders envisioned CDI to be an all inclusive, welcoming haven for those seeking to come to terms with their transgendered nature. While the majority of our members and friends identify as cross dressers, we have served as a refuge for those who identify as transsexual, drag queen, and gender queer as well. Historically, our focus has been on the m-f crossdresser/transgendered. However, we do welcome those who identify from the f-m experience. While many of our members are long time comfortable with their transgender identity, we have never lost sight that our basic mission is to stand ready to provide a welcoming sanctuary for those who are taking their very first steps of self discovery. We know from our own experience that this can be a frightening time for those who have been closeted. The fear of loss of family, friends, employment, and standing in ones community can be overwhelming. And all for merely being gender different. Even today in our changing times the fear of discovery, ridicule, and worse can be terrifying for those who are attempting to safely practice their gender expression. WE are here for you. We make no claims of being “expert” in any matters, yet through our individual and collective experience we are highly knowledgeable. CDI also serves as a resource center where we can direct you to qualified professionals should that be desired. In short, we believe that groups like ours help to save lives. Sometimes just a welcoming smile and spoken kindness can be enough to assure someone (and maybe that’s you!) that they are not alone. For whatever reason each of us were dealt this hand from birth. For years many of us have considered it a curse. At CDI we believe that once liberated from the isolation of the closet that in time you will come to see your own transgenderism as a “gift”. So whether experienced or not, come - We welcome you, and we exist for you!

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