My shoe fetish, not what, but why! In our male lives, we share almost nothing of our CD history or current gender thoughts, and even in the company of transgender friends, much, but not all, tumbles out. The advantage of a Blog like this is to benefit our fellow TGs with some of those ‘secret’ thoughts..but anonymously.
In my case, crossdressing started with an intense interest in girls way back in the 7th grade just as they started wearing bras and edged into puberty. And a focus on their shoes: in those days, shiny loafers and kneesocks or simple black flats and stockings. As I grew up (maybe !), my home-grown fantasy was to wear those shoes and stockings in isolation…just to masturbate. Years later I bought designer heels for my first wife…classic laceups or black and white spectator pumps…which she’d wear for sex…and, then, I did too…but they didn’t fit…and she was repelled by it all. As the years went by, the initial (shoe) fetish spread up my body toward total dressing…at first alone, then in social settings…and, finally, it morphed into a second, female mentality. The initial fetish persisted as part of femme me…and in a very specific way: a fondness for flats, retro laceup pumps and boots, slings, classic Gucci loafers, black and white spectators…no patent…or suede…no open toe pumps…no strappy sandals. As with most of us, I hardly had any fashion education, either from girlfriends or other GGs, from female family members, or fashion magazines. So the unanswered questions are two fold: why a shoe fetish in the first place, and, secondly, why the specific styles I chose…and those I rejected. What makes the subject intriguing to me is that the original shoe fetish was what started my gender journey toward total crossdressing and femme expression. Is a narrow fetish how many of us start ? Or do other ladies-in-waiting first experience total femme feelings in their minds…not in their dress ? I don’t know the answer; do you ?