I have purged again. After all the progress in coming out to my fiancee that I had made, I was at a place where I felt like I had no choice. At first, she seemed very open to try and understand about my crossdressing, but it wasn’t long before it became very obvious that she just wanted me to be “cured”. In order to save our relationship, I got rid of all my clothes and my beautiful shoes. It was such a painful experience.
However, in the last few weeks I have learned something. The desire to dress en femme and let out the woman that I am inside is all a part of who I am. Its not something I need to be “cured” of. We talked things out over and over again and things seem to be turning out for the better between us. There were more things that we needed to work out, and my crossdressing was the one that was easier to focus on when the other issues seemed too difficult to address. Having worked a lot of things out, I am happy to say that I am back, although I’ll be starting from scratch to rebuild a feminine wardrobe.
It’s been a little while since I have done any shopping and I totally need a new wig. If anyone has places in NYC that they would recommend I’m all ears.